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I am so sad that David Bowie is dead.

Ready Freddy

I despise this mid-summer-what-am-I-doing-with-my-life feeling. I feel crazy unproductive and antsy just sitting around all day on the computer. I suppose I could be putting more time into my photography, but I'm super frustrated with it right now because I can't get it to work. I am working with the calotype process right now which is the first ever negative process and it uses paper negatives. Unfortunately it is very difficult and precise so there is TONS of trial and error. I have been working on it for about two months now and gotten 1 successful shot! Getting that one shot is very rewarding because of all of the hard work that goes into it, but it can get very discouraging when it doesn't work out. End frustrated ramblings.

holy guacamole

So I haven't been on here since 2008 but I was feeling nostalgic so I came back and looked at my LJ account for the first time since I left. Well I suppose I might as well start using it again. I don't really feel like doing one big update so I'm just gonna post about anything new in my life when it is relevant, but for now I'll do a quick update of anything that comes to mind. Well I'm living in Portland, OR now which is amazing and I've been living here for almost a year now. I am still with the same boy that I talked about in my last few posts in 2008 and we recently decided to have a polyamorous relationship and I very recently started dating someone. I realized that I am bisexual. I still enjoy glam rock but it's not a big deal for me like it used to be. Ok that's all I've got for now, but I'll have more updates in the future. So I guess that's that and hello again LJ world!

I less than three pen pals

I have been sitting around all day with nothing to do. Mucho bored! I wish I had a few more people online to talk to for days like this. So send me your AIM, Myspace, E-mail whatever. I'd love to have a few more pen pals to chat with :) I don't care if I talk to you all the time or I've never said a word to you I'd love to talk!

I almost forgot me and my dad went searching through our storage unit the other day and found a few amazing things! I love having a die hard Bowie fan as a father I inherit some amazing stuff. First we found an old poster from '74 in San Francisco, It's an amazing Bowie poster made out of a really weird shiny silver material. Then we found my dad's copy of Rock Dreams! It's not really Bowie related but we also found a harmonica that was given to my dad by my grandfather, it's from Germany and it was made some time in the 40's. I'm learning to play harmonica so this is very cool for me.

Now playing: Pink Floyd - Mother


I got an xbox 360 yesterday so if you have one send me your gamertag. I want some people to play with :)

I also got my first dog two days ago :) his name is Ollie and he's super cute :)


(I know to many smilies)...... :)

definitions please

Give me your definition of love. I figured it would be interesting to hear other peoples ideas of love. Tell me what you think love means, how does it feel. Also I'd like to know if you've ever been in love. I thought of doing this a few days ago. My boyfriend was asleep next to me in bed holding me, I had just woken up and I was just watching him sleep. It was early in the morning and the light from outside was shining through the blinds onto his face. I felt like the luckiest girl ever to live, and while I was watching him I realized that I couldn't think of the words to describe love. So here's my task, describe love. If you had to describe love to someone who'd never felt it, if you had to make them understand the feeling, what words would you use?

yes I know how corny this is but I figure it's interesting so I don't give a shit :P

This is the best I could come up with, but I don't think it comes near to explaining it.

Take every good feeling you've ever felt in your life. Every feeling of joy or safety or warmth or whatever. Take all of that and cram it into a tiny box 1x1x1 inch. Now fill an entire football field with those tiny little boxes. That's my best go at it... your turn now

rant update

So now my past rant is a bit useless. I spent the weekend with friends(who are no longer sick and can hang out) and as of today my boyfriend is back in town. He came over to my place today, I gave him his rather late graduation presents which he liked and we watched the lonesome dove prequel for a while. Since we where both up till 4 the night before talking and neither of us got much sleep after that we fell asleep together. So to sum it up I'm not in a pissy ranty mood anymore :)


I really don't want to bore anyone to death by ranting to them so I'm going to take all of my ranty rage and post it here(in other words just tell me nice stuff to make me not so angry). I'm going out of my mind with boredom. All of my friends in the area are sick, just can't do anything, or are out of town, and my boyfriend is in fucking CA for what seems like forever. This means that I've been stuck in the damn house with nothing to do for nearly a week. It's to damn hot outside to walk anywhere and my bike is at my friends house which I really don't want to walk to in the heat (I live in the middle of the desert, so when I say hot I mean HOT!). Now to top it all off I've got a headache. I know all of this isn't that bad but I'm insanely bored which is unusual for me and I'm just in an angry mood so please excuse my overly selfish bitchy rant. I hate calling friends and ranting to them because I know they don't want to hear it so here is my way of blowing off steam.

for any of you that actually read this please feel free to send me a message any time even if we've never talked before. I'm always up for meeting new people and it's a great way to fill my time.

sorry for waisting about 5 minutes of your life with my rant.


surprise surprise

Apparently that mythical night spent talking to someone until 3 or 4 at night really exists. That's good to know :)

coolest belt buckle???.... perhaps so

keep in mind shitty scan